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I presume you are referring to the phrase “non-practicing supervillain” in my blog’s description (if I’m incorrect, please clarify). Quite pretentious and weird, I’ll admit that, but those few who know me best would absolutely attest to its accuracy. The “non-practicing” part is because I lack the resources, and because at present my physical and mental health is a major impediment to my goals, both the realistic ones and those that are more— outlandish.
However, something like robbing a bank is a very mundane type of villainy. I have no interest in wealth, outside of financial security and as a means to an end. I aspire to grander things (though I know I’ll likely never achieve them, for a whole host of reasons).
I have personality disorders – NPD and comorbid ASPD; I’m an antisocial narcissist – with symptoms that include (among many other things) an absence of empathy and remorse, a scheming and manipulative personality, extreme grandiosity and megalomania, and a difficulty perceiving other people as being “real” in the same sense that I am. As I mentioned in another post earlier today, I believe it is my destiny to change the world, and ideally I’d like to change it for the better, though my motives for doing so are admittedly unusual.

What makes me different from many who would like to change the world is the lengths I’d be willing to go in order to accomplish it. To quote a post of mine from the other day: “I don’t believe that the ends always justify the means, but I do advocate for a much more diverse toolkit that isn’t limited by sentiment. It really comes down to cost versus benefit, with the widest possible interpretation of both terms. If the full extent of the benefit exceeds the full extent of the cost by a sufficient margin, it’s probably justified.” If you combine that sentiment with the symptoms I listed above, you’ll start to get a better idea of what I mean.

I aspire to be the sort of person who fundamentally reshapes the world, by doing the awful things other people aren’t willing or able to do, in order to save humanity from itself. A great example of such a person from a work of fiction is the character Ozymandias from the story Watchmen, who sets off a cataclysm that kills millions of innocents in order to prevent an imminent nuclear war that would have killed billions. These are the sort of things I think about all the time. In fact, that way of looking at the world makes so much sense to me that when I first saw that film I literally did not recognize that Ozymandias was supposed to be the villain.

I may go into more detail about this at a later date, since many people have asked about different aspects of it. But rest assured that my use of the term “non-practicing supervillain”, while indeed incredibly pretentious and rather edgy, is nevertheless a very accurate description of me.

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