Paedophile here. Contrary to popular belief being a paedophile doesn't suddenly make you into some kind of monster who has an irresistible urge (or any urge whatsoever for that matter) to molest children. I am a normal person like any one of you and like most people I have a very healthy moral code. There is no inner battle within me on whether or not I should go rape a child. Like any sane person I recognise that doing so would be one of the most reprehensible acts I could ever do.

I go on google image search and find normal pictures of clothed cute little girls and then I fantasise and jack off to them. That's it. Nobody gets hurt and I am not going to apologise for it. My fantasies are not about some kind of horrible rape either but about consensual encounters (and I know that's not something that can happen in the real world, don't worry).

I also oppose the notion that paedophiles should seek therapy. I suppose you should do that if you feel you are a danger to kids but I think most paedophiles simply know that they aren't, so it's not a problem. Any person who actually molests children is probably not just a paedophile but also a sociopath and probably doesn't want help either way.

I do not and have never seen my paedophilia as a problem. I would not opt out of it if I could. I enjoy my fantasies a great deal and they give me a sense of beauty and pleasure I would not want to give up. You normal people, ask yourself if you would want to give up your attraction to adult women/men, or do you in fact love being aroused by them?

My dream is that I'll live long enough to see the invention of matrix-like simulations where I can have sex with virtual children. Most likely I'll die long before such a thing is invented. But hey, I'm OK with that. You take what you can get. Maybe a child sex doll at some point? Either way, it is surprisingly easy to not rape kids. Really. People who do that have much bigger problems than being a paedophile

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completely understand you, but I don't see why you wouldn't want to opt out if you could.

You compare it with "normal people" giving up their attraction to adult women/men. I don't think you can compare it that easily, because we can have an actual relationship with an adult woman/man if we want to, while you can't have one with children.

TL;DR I accept, but don't understand you

I should say that I am also attracted to adult women. However if I had to chose to get rid of one part of my sexuality it would be adults. I'm a forever alone guy anyway so it wouldn't change much, I'm not bathing in pussy by any means.

As for why, I guess the pedo sexuality simply feels richer than the adult one. I like both girls and women physically (appearance wise). But girls have the added benefit of their cuteness and innocence, and the terrible terrible taboo of it just makes it more exciting. Women feel boring in comparison.

If you still don't understand me, think of it like this. Some guy only likes 2 types of music. Iron Maiden and Mozart. He hates all other music. Out of those two he likes Mozart more. He has to get rid of one of them though. If he keeps liking Iron Maiden he can go to their concerts because they are still alive. Mozart he can only listen to from his record player however. But he likes Mozart much more than he likes Iron Maiden. He could never give up Mozart because the thought of never getting to listen to those symphonies again feels terrible. Like a great loss of beauty that has come to define him as a person.

Hope that helps.