Christ IS NOT MY LORD. Why do I feel I belong?

You sound pretty angry at the thought of having Jesus as your Lord. Much more angry than someone who has no use for God would have and display. Usually they just go on in silence and not try to convince anyone of Him not being their Lord. Who are you trying to convince? Us? Or, maybe yourself—

You sound like it is a real struggle for you as you know He should be your Lord, but you still defy His words and rebell against Him.

That's a that's a pretty common place to be my friend; but you need to make a decision. Are you going to make a decision for Christ or decision against Him? Jesus doesn't want people who are half and half on the fence. He says in Revelation 3:16 that He would rather people be either on fire for Him or ice cold—not lukewarm.

I understand your struggle and your resistance, but be honest- what is holding you back? What reason do you have to not want to accept Christ?

As I tell everyone - salvation is free. As in, no cost to you. God gives it out to all who ask for it and accept it by faith in Christ. The alternative is you paying for your sins yourself. And that is going to require you being out of God's presence (hell) for all eternity because you can't possibly work hard enough or do enough to pay for your sin debt.

But Jesus can pay for it and He has. And He wants to apply it to your account. All you have to do is ask for it and take it.

So again I ask - what's holding you back from that? Are you happy living on the fence? Your heart is telling you it's the right thing to do, but your sinful side is telling you don't do it.

Surely you must have some reasons for not wanting to accept Christ . Is it lack of evidence that keeps you back or do you not like the thought of giving your life over to God and doing what He says and being obedient to Him ? Is there something perhaps in your lifestyle that you don't want to give up?

You don't have to answer those questions obviously as they are rhetorical. But just think about why you're rejecting Christ and what your reasons are—and ask yourself - are those good reasons? Are they good enough to put my eternity at stake?

I'll leave those words with you for you to struggle with and talk to God about. But if you ask me, you are making a foolish mistake if you choose not to accept Christ. There are infinite pluses and no negatives to it.

You're not going to find a better deal anywhere else. God offers you eternal life for free, but keep in mind that the deal ends when your life ends - that's when they both expire.