CarlosWongAlmonds #racist reddit.com

Someone help me hide my disgust for whites/Chans/Lus please, shit's hurting my career lol.Identity

I've been blessed with an uncannily high degree of social awareness, in that I 'figure out' people extremely, extremely quickly. Which means that I can figure out within seconds whether

a white is racist (95% of the time, yes), and

an Asian person is a Lu/Chan.

However, pretending to like people tires me out very quickly. I make it very obvious when I dislike someone because to do otherwise is very mentally draining for me. I have incredible social skills knowledge (I know what to say/do 99% of the time to make people love me, so I'm excellent in interviews - I've never not been hired after an interview - because interviews are an hour at max), but pretending to like people that I dislike/don't care about tires me out very, very quickly. (aka despite my extremely slutty ways I'm very traditionally introverted in that as much as I enjoy people spending time with people tires me out as opposed to energizing me)

I'm in a career where racist whites and Chan/Lus unfortunately make up a significant proportion of those in leadership positions. I've heard through the grapevine that a large proportion of these Chan/Lus and racist whites outright hate me, even if I've barely spoken to them.

I've surmised that this is 50% because I'm Asian and I'm don't grovel (nothing I can do to change that), but also 50% because I figure them out as a racist white or a Chan/Lus very quickly and I give off microexpressions that I just can't be bothered to deal with them.

One anecdote I can remember is that during a work function, a girl joined the conversation I was having, and I quickly figured out that she was Lu as fuckkkk from the disproportionate attention she paid to the whites in the conversation (of course I later found out that she had a white boyfriend - duh). Looking back, I realized that I then unconsciously closed her out of the conversation and dragged everyone away from her while totally ignoring her. I didn't do this consciously, but it was just a natural reaction of me not wanting to interact with someone I didn't find worthy.

So anyway, this shit is obviously hurting my career. In a club or social setting I don't really care who I piss off, but this is honestly a high-paying, prestigious career and I'm going to have to deal with this (aka avoid having people hate me). I'm ok with Chan/Lus/whites not particularly liking me or caring about me in the office, but having them hate me is an active detriment to my career.

(Yes, I'm setting up side hustles so that eventually I'll never have to work for anyone, but that takes time).

I don't even know how to approach this mentally. How do I pretend to be nice to racist whites/Chan/Lus while not totally mentally draining myself out during the day? Hopefully someone's been in the same situation as me and they have some relevant words of support to offer.

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