I was a fit, pretty attractive, very academically/career-wise successful guy who started getting a lot of attention my last year in college (I'm young looking so it took a while for me to mature). I went from hooking up with a new girl once every 6 months to once or twice a week. One girl was completely smitten. When I got a mysterious form of cancer, it was like all the positive feelings about me dried up overnight because I was no longer useful. As in, yesterday I was cool and they were all fans but today I was no longer cool so I deserved to be treated like shit. I was in a pretty desperate situation, yet my (former) friends used every ounce of my (understandable) neediness as an indictment against me. My male friends were very supportive, but my female friends were awful, especially the ones who had been attracted to me (give or take a few cool girls). I was shocked because this was the antithesis of how I was brought up, where women are these kind, nice creatures who treat you well if you treat them well first.

When I discovered The Red Pill and "Briffault's Law," it really stuck out to me. I started to see patterns in my female friends who were feminists. I'm Jewish, and I grew very disillusioned with the Jewish support for feminism which I saw as good intentions gone awry. As I got healthier, I started reading Chateau Heartiste and my game exploded. I realized that women had different biological attraction triggers. I got into the neoreactionary movement and started learning about HBD and shit. I knew there was some truth to it, because the part of my family that is Jewish all have +140 IQs and are very inquisitive, whereas my goy-ish family is more "White"-thinking but still quite smart.