Well I feel sorry for you then, because if you believe your existance is pointless, then that is up to you. As for me, I treasure existence and life. If that is how you feel, then so be it. I'm not in charge of changing your mind either. If I were you, I would give better credit to the idea that heaven is a glorious, celestial place with millions of planets then some little piddily fluffy cloud with angels and harps. Were'd you imagine this from? Drawings Children's story books?