“Similarly, I believed that my origins were found in evolution. This was superficially pleasing to me as it was an adequate method to explain away actions that I knew were immoral.”
You’re a lying poser. Evolution as a science just teaches where species came from. It does not say whether or not there is a god, nor does it say that god did not give us a moral code.
And if you were an amoral atheist, how did you believe ANY fucking thing was immoral? Immoral by what standards and why did you accept those standards?
“Deep inside I was convinced that many of my actions were wrong,”
Why? HOW?
“ but evolution helped me to conveniently rationalize those fears.”
Okay. HOW? You’re just arguing by consequences, but not drawing the lines between these dots.
What does ‘men are a form of ape, split off from Chimpanzees’ says that it’s not immoral to date sluts? What says that it is?
“I was able to blame my actions on my "natural instincts".”
But you’re saying that you had a natural instinct that those actions were wrong, correct? You need to pick one.
You also could use a beta reader for your bible fanfiction.
“I would lie to my parents to better my own existence, I would hurt others to ease my own life and assert my dominance over rivals (survival of the fittest),”
Uh huh… Sure. I believe you.
Except, individuals do not evolve, numbnuts. It’s survival of the fittest SPECIES, not individuals. We’re social creatures and not amoral sharks.
“and I would sleep with my girlfriend due to my animal instinct to procreate (though had we succeeded we would have had an abortion - logical?).”
I don’t believe you ever, once, understood evolution, much less believed it, and you were never an atheist. Your criticism of the atheist outlook is pure fantasy
