God doesn’t want you to get beat down with a bunch of guilt over the lives that you couldn’t save. Instead, He wants you to go into this period with a firm grip on the fact that He alone controls who dies and how. When you’re too tired to think straight and you grab the wrong medication for a patient, guess what? You’re not perfect. When the mother of the kid who just died in your arms is screaming that it’s all your fault, she’s wrong. It is not your job to save lives. It’s not your job to shield people from the power of God. Your responsibility is limited to asking God to have His total way in your life and then trusting that He will.

God doesn’t need your help to save people. His primary reason for involving you in His work is to strengthen your personal relationship with Him. Practicing submission is a vital part of growing closer to God, and practicing submission is what you’re doing every time you accept the death of a patient and move on instead of telling God that He’s a creep or blaming yourself for not pulling a miracle out of the air.