My own nature. Always been I guess curious is the best word so I just wanted to learn the truth about human nature in every aspect.
The rise of the tumblr kind of feminism in like 2013 or so was a stepping stone. The wage gap, rape culture, every talking point they had I researched and found every single one of them to be based on fabrications or misrepresentations.
I don't really care about race realism anymore but that was also a stepping stone.
When it comes to a doctrine I can't say where my final position will be because I still have much to learn. I'm definitely sympathetic to Fascism and Monarchism. I also like the anti-technology, self sufficiency and survivalist 'anarcho-primitivist' kind of people, for example Uncle Ted and Varg Vikernes.
My curiousity about the world led me to researching what are the cores of human nature, whatever differences there are between cultures and ethics of different ethnic groups there remains basic truths. They manifest in our myths, our philosophies and religious teachings. The same few concepts have managed to be present in every culture across the world, these are 'primordial truths' that transcend the material world and guide humanity. The closer our ideology represents nature the closer we will be to happiness as people.
The most obvious example of this manifestation is the warrior/heroic spirit, this is what guides people to be drawn to Fascism's militarism and nationalism. The courageousness and willingness to sacrifice displayed by Fascist leaders draws men to them in a spiritual sense without them even realising. They are reminiscent of our own stories of old heroes, whether it be in Christianity, Norse, Roman, Greek, Persian or any other ancient belief system there are stories of great heroes. These heroes perform great tasks that only they can do, a city being terrorised by a dragon they are the ones to kill it where others could not. A 'damsel in distress' they are the ones to rescue her. This heroic spirit has always been and will always be something present in the human spirit and will eternally draw us to people that display those qualities, hence the popularity of the Third Position (Fascism, NatSoc, Falangism etc) leaders.