Hello everyone!

I'm new here. I've been thinking about joining here with the intentions of finding others who can be accepting(even sometimes fascinated) to real yandere personalities.
I wish to apologize in advance that this will get long, or even boring. I'm in a bad mood lately, which makes what I say so much more unappealing to read, at least to me anyway.

I can't really choose the most yandere thing I've ever done, it never really ends.
The truth about me is that I have a very black heart. I couldn't care less if anyone dies. Under specific circumstances in the end, that can apply to the person I love.

I've manipulated many people in my life, and made a few of them very miserable. The ones I'll talk about are centered around one specific person I loved years ago. The so called friends of my lover would constantly encourage very bad behavior, that once led to me being stabbed in the back.
I set out, and gained the favor of my lover's friends, and if I couldn't, I'd convince and spread rumors to my lover. Sometimes I even made a few "friends" fall in love with my alluring personality(with the absence of a relationship, mind you) to keep them away of my lover.. I would emotionally torture and break their minds to the point of making them submissive. When I deemed necessary, I'd happily drive them to suicide, but I've always stopped short of it.
In the end, I got most of them away from my crush one way or another.

After awhile, horrible rumors would spread about me, and the one I loved at the time became terrified of me. So from then on I was heartbroken, and would even stalk them, sniffing out any information on them whenever I couldn't visibly see them from both their friends(who I still held a little favoribility with) and anyone who saw them.
Later one of them unwittingly admitted to having casual sex with my crush, and then I confronted my crush directly, asking many questions forcing them to admit to anything. All I wanted was the truth, and it made me furious. (One rule I have that you should never break, never lie to me. )
The very last thing I ever said to them.
In a very loving tone I said, "I understand, but you know, sometimes you really make me want to kill you~"
I honestly didn't understand at the time, why they'd react the way they did after I said that.
As you may or may not imagine, this made them cut off all contact with me permanently, out of the fear I really would have done such a thing.

Now..
My first post is exactly like one long text wall of boring rambling stupidity. How silly of me.
If it makes anyone feel better I gave myself a headache trying to finish this.

In conclusion to this long half-remembered and pointless story of mine.
The "yandere" in me will never end, and it's likely I will never change.
I've grown more docile over the years and definately don't manipulate people to such loathesome extremes anymore. (It may hurt when someone you love accuses you of doing it to them, even if you never really did)
Being far more wise then I used to be.
I've learned if you are one who loves "obsessively", it best to make sure it's with someone who can return it.
I really do apologize for such a long post. It's strange making my first post about what a "creepy" person I can be rather then making my first impression a more charming one.
Even after everything, I still don't regret anything I've done.