Only God in Heaven knows the abuse, cruelty, mental anguish and torment of soul that I endured during my first and second neck surgeries. Yet God saw me through. Things can happen to a person that aren't noticed by others, because they're just a small contributor or part of the big picture. Meanwhile you're suffering in unbelievable torment and no one cares or knows what's happening to you, because they're not in your shoes. It was far worse than death. I believe that my life's testimony makes the angels cry. I really do. You just don't know. You couldn't possible know. Many people would have killed themselves. I'm so thankful that God gave to us Job and the Psalms, documenting the sufferings, mental anguish, frustrations, pain, grief and sorrows of Job and David.

Kindly, I wish everyone could know, so I wouldn't feel so alone. I'm glad that the Bible says one day my life will be known to all. Matthew 10:26, “Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known.” Until then I must suffer.