I don't even want to get a gf anymore - I just want to be rid of my sexuality

Anyone else feel like this?

I'm just so tired of the whole thing. I don't want to feel overwhelmed and intoxicated everytime I see a pretty girl. I don't want to feel this need for sex and intimacy anymore.

I don't want my already maladjusted behaviour to be twisted even more by these desires that I'm programmed to have.

If only there'd be a way to rewire my neurons so that any feelings of sexual attraction would be disabled completely. Make it so that the sight of a gorgeous woman doesn't do anything more for me than seeing a tree or a bicycle. I'd do it in a heartbeat.

After all, I never asked for these feelings. I've never wanted them, and they have never brought me anything good. So why should I have to suffer and become a worse person because of them?