Hello...I recently discovered that the maniacal and insane love I've been searching for all of my life has an incarnation in Yandere. Since I can remember, I've always been plagued by a love far more intense than that of people around me...in the fourth grade, I stalked my crush to her home so I could put a Valentine in her mailbox. My first girlfriend was very attractive and many of my so-called friends fell in love with her, and it made me come face to face with the fact that I wanted to give her the gift of their eyes so she could make sure they were never looking at her again. And after that I realized that I was never going to be able to really love like other people. Whenever people would talk about "psycho girlfriend behavior", I'd just get all fluttery in my heart, thinking of how much I'd love the feeling of pride when my girl goes through my phone looking for texts to other women and finds none, because I love her so much I'd never kiss anyone else. When I watched my friend's ex girlfriend kick open the door and immediately attack his new girlfriend, it made me think she was so hot and that my friend was so stupid for leaving her, despite that everyone else was saying what a good choice it was to dump her. I'm just
hoping that by coming here and talking about it, that somehow, magically, a beautiful girl will appear with photos of me for the past three days, a plan to track me if I run, and a cake baked especially for me with some of her blood in the batter to make sure she gets part of herself closer to my heart. ^_^

Vital Stats - 30 years old, Male, Bible Belt-living, 6'2 220lbs, degrees in English and History, highly politically and philosophically active, atheist, and liberal.

I don't know, because I don't think she counts as a true Yandere, but I love Tomoko Kuroki from Watamote. I feel like she never actually finds love, but that if she did she'd become yandere with a swiftness heretofore reserved for photons. She's also the closest fictional equalivent to my own personality. Here on the internet, I'm all typetypetype, but in real life I'm reserved, quiet, and get very nervous when talking to people...especially girls I think ae pretty...

[ Is magic really necessary? Also, what do you think would happen then? ]

Well in my fantasy she's pretty, and nice, and intelligent enough to have tracked me despite that I put a lot of effort and what I hope is intelligent thought into covering my tracks and keeping myself untraceable, and she's, well, yandere. Honestly I eat the cake and we fall madly in love and live happily ever after, helping each other hide the evidence. I don't want to resist, I don't want to upset her, I want to be her perfect love and to make sure she always smiles, and if anyone gets in the way of that I might just give her their pretty teeth.

But if she ends up feeling like she needs to kill me, then I...I just hope she accepts my apology and believes that I really do love her before she does. But I'd only want her to kill me from love; I like yandere, and have no love for yangire.

[ Am I reading this right that you wouldn't mind being killed from love? ]

It's not so much that I wouldn't mind it...I would, I'd be very sad, but it'd be because my time with her was over. As long as she promised never to move on and to spend the rest of her life mourning me, I don't know...I know I'd kick and scream while it was happening, but the notion seems so romantic to me...

My own yandere-ness tends to be protective, though...I could never kill my love no matter how horrible she was.