Re: Oh no, totally not a fetish /s
I believe you will find my profile quite common:
Yeah, we are well aware of the AGP profile. It fits you like a glove:
Longstanding sexual thoughts about being a woman: check
Erotic crossdressing: check
Having to imagine yourself a woman in order to get off: check
Envy attraction towards women: check
Cross-gender desires dissipate when dating women: check
Fascination with menstrual products: check
Lack of confidence in expressing his sexual attraction toward women: check
His development of AGP follows the exact script that Buckner described in The Transvestic Career Path:
5. Development of a sexual association between crossdressing and sexual pleasure.
Buckner's first step: A pattern of fetishistic masturbation with articles of women's clothing is established.
6. Re-enforcement of this association due to inability to attract women as partners over many years
Buckner's second step: The pattern is reinforced due to perceived heterosexual difficulties.
8. Continued simulation of "being a woman" to vent sexual frustration and gain access to some semblance of woman's bodies that is otherwise inacessible
Buckner's fourth step: Elaboration of masturbation fantasies into the development of a feminine self.
10. Continued fantasies now projected onto the practical reality of transitioning, as opposed to the magical-empathetic reality
Buckner's fifth/final step: Autoerotic gratification pattern becomes fixed in his identity. Begins to relate towards himself as if he were his own girlfriend/wife.
I believe that I would not have ended up here had I been able to compete and to be attractive to female partners.
At least he is somewhat self-aware.