You need to understand that for one year they won my heart at Harvest. The church nurse liked me, and I was scared at the time to reach out to her, so I didn't. But she had my heart. She used to wait for me in the parking lot when I came to church, and that made a major impression on me. I made friends in the church. I loved the pastor dearly, because he came up to me personally before every service, and I felt very loved. But then I handed him some books to help him see, as a friend. I gave him “Martin Luther: Master Of Deceit” by Pastor Max D. Younce, my friend. I gave him “NIV: The Antichrist's Bible” by Pastor Al Lacy. And I gave him “I Never Knew You” by Brother Michael P. Bowen. All three books offended their pastors. I was called into the back office of the church, and reprimanded, prohibited from sharing those book titles with anybody in the church. They called Pastor Jack Hyles and me “a cult.” Consequently, I was compelled to leave Harvest Baptist Church, in bitter tears all the way home. I had just lost the only church family I knew.
They gave up on me as the months passed, and then a couple years. I had nowhere else to go to church, so I didn't. I was dying with loneliness. I gained a bunch of weight due to depression. I thought about that nurse every day, and then saw her on February 21, 2017 at Asan Beach in her hammock between two palm trees, and my heart melted. I finally told her how I felt about her. She had so much of an impact on my soul, that I went on a crash diet, going from 215 pounds to 145 in just 4 months, to impress her. Unfortunately, she e-mailed me and told me never to contact her again. I was very sad. But at least I had finally told her how I felt, wanting to court her at church, and now I had some closure, knowing that she didn't want me, and made it clear. What could I do? That was her choice alone, which saddened me much.
After that event, I desperately wanted to go back to Harvest. I apologized to the church pastors for any trouble I had caused, and humbly with respect begged them to please allow me to attend church services. They literally used my affection for the nurse as an excuse not to let me return, which made me angry. Men of God don't play God with people's lives. I am 100% confident that I am not the first person, who has ever liked someone else in their church. I mean, after all, the nurse did like me first! I knew their excuse was a lame attempt to simply get rid of me, and that hurt deeply. A Scripture comes to mind...
Philippians 2:1-3, “If there be therefore any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any bowels and mercies, Fulfil ye my joy, that ye be likeminded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind. Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.”
So in my frustration I hadn't been able to convince the Pastors to let me come back. I wrote a bunch more articles, expressing my frustrations, and telling THE TRUTH!
Then a young Christian woman from Harvest Baptist Church moved into my neighborhood in 2017, and I fell in love with her the moment I saw her. She recently did her hair, and looks like a glamour girl, and she is beautiful. I won't explain it all again, because I share my story in this article. And also, I share my feelings in this article about Harvest. Well, the second woman wrote me a letter, and gave back my affectionate care-bear. Strangely, her letter seemed to say almost verbatim what the nurse's letter said, which was suspicious, leading me to believe that her pastors were behind both letters. As you can imagine, now I am really wanting to expose them for fake Bibles, Lordship Salvation and not letting me come back to church. What a mess! So now there are two women at Harvest Baptist Church that are dear to me, and I am not allowed to come to church, not even to sit quietly and listen to the sermons. Who wouldn't be upset?
I mean, if the ladies don't like me, then they don't like me, what's the big deal? I have 100% respected both women, by never contacting them again (as they both requested). That is the hardest thing to do, but I am not a fool. Kindly, their pastors are playing God with my life, trying to own people. So be it, then I will continue to expose their church as a cult, since they are promoting the Alexandrian cult Bible versions (Note: I humbly disagree with Dr. Peter Ruckman on double-inspiration for the King James Bible, but he is 100% accurate concerning the Alexandrian versions). I gave the pastors of Harvest a solemn promise, that if they allowed me to return I would not be a root of bitterness in the church. I don't make promises often, because talk is cheap and promises are easily broken. So when I make a promise, I keep my word, which my family knows to be true. Through all the suffering I have endured in my life, it is easier for me to forgive and let go of grudges. God has forgiven me of so much! I pray that they would do the same at HBC. It doesn't matter what my motive is for exposing Harvest, as long as I am telling THE TRUTH! Forgive me if I seem arrogant, God knows I am not, I am just confident. No woman at Harvest will ever like me if their pastors are against me. I just wish we could all get along as brethren in Christ! I am a fighter, I admit, like God my Savior. Brother Lester Roloff: “Say what you will, God is a fighter!” Albeit, I long for fellowship with a local Baptist church, to love them and hopefully be loved back.