A demon rapes me constantly. All day 99% of the day it feels like my dick is getting sucked. God won't remove it. This has went on for over a decade.

I resisted it for many years but it doesn't stop. I finally realized God may actually be not removing it for an unknown reason and it's not a succubus wife from a past life or something. It may even be male which is bad because I'm not gay.

I thought i might be damned at times, but I realized God may just not be removing it for another reason. Jesus won't remove it either. The demon pretends to be God and Jesus and an angel and a Goddess. i think it's the same demon pretending to be mulitple people at once by causing me to hallucinate.

Has anyone else been raped for 10 years straight and it eventually went away? I fear God may let me be raped all day until I die.

I don't think I can do anything about it. I'm just ignoring it now, I tried 12 hours a day of Bible reading for months and it didnt go away. The thing rapes me as I read the Bible and it causes the Bible to open to pages that can't be a coincidence, which tricked me to thinking God was talking to me, but it's the demon.

The thing says it's Jesus at times and that I'm supposed to be married to Jesus. No thanks. I'm not gay. It says i have to pleasure women together with it and that it's Jesus and that's "beyond the milk of the word". No thanks, not pleasuring a woman with Jesus or God even would rather be an eternal incel, literally. Never going to share a woman.

My situation is sad, I don't get a full or normal life.

Has anyone been in similar and it got better?

I also thought this was a succubus trying to desensitize me to male male female experiences, so i reufsed every step of the way. I won't do a MMF not even with a sex goddess. I will never do a MMF, not with God if God asked, not with jesus, not with a sex goddess.

I may have accepted God will never remove it. It sucks but i can't do shit agianst a demon.