So let me start with i have been in normal relationships before (none lasted long) and a controlling one (it only ended because i lied and our beliefs on porn were different). I have noticed over the last few years ...women don't interest me in general people are easy to read and to anticipate they bore me. Because of this i never really fall for women or feel anything towards them. I have noticed i'm attracted to women who are more unstable then most people like people with moodswings i find myself really liking when i don't know how someone is going to be. a month ago now i was talking to a girl who liked me and well i told her how this girl was hitting on me and i got the response "I...want to cut her lips off for touching you.." a normal person would be creeped out by this me well..i took a weird sort of affection from it and because of her clingy / needy attitude i started to fall for her. Needless to say we didn't do anything as we are a country apart and i'm not ready to date someone outside of my country. So i'm attracted to Needy/Clingy/Controlling/Agressive women big factors that everyone is told to avoid like the plague. So according to society me being in love is not healthy because the type of people who i'm into are not seen as healthy. Now one might ask why would you be ok with a controlling girlfriend? well ...i hate people trying to control me. I want to be the owner of myself and won't let anyone make me do something i don't want to ...however there is one exception i make and that is to the person i fall for i like if they are controlling / possesive of my love and want it all for themselves. I was listening to a song A qoute from the song sums up something i find attractive ""Your entire existence is now mine"" Now that to a normal person would turn someone off making them not ok with someone being like owned by someone in a way but to me it's something that feels right to me. My mental state is fine as a person but what i'm attracted to is seen as bad and unstable and destructive and wrong. So should i stay lonely and not find love because i want such a dysfunctional relationship i mean its stupid to say but i miss being controlled to a degree by someone whom i trust my entire life and being to. Maybe i am weird anyhow i wanted to put this out there to get opinions from people...maybe its best i stay alone forever but i want that sickening but sweet love that others fear...