Good Sunday. Please excuse me while I rant for a moment and get something off my chest that's been deeply troubling me:
I thought when I asked more of you for help that more of you would actually show up to help. It truly saddens me that only a few have made the effort. I haven't asked you for much: just enough to keep the Eden Decoded website from going offline. But you seem totally unconcerned.
You could've given $5, $3, $10 - SOMETHING. But to totally ignore my calls for help or pretend to be offended that I would dare ask you to give reveals an extremely selfish attitude on the part of those who only come here to get but never give when they have the chance to be a blessing to someone else.
For the past few years I've freely poured my heart and soul into this page, into my articles and into the many ebooks I've created: often paying to boost my posts out of my own pocket just to get past the FB filters that would've prohibited more of you from hearing my messages in the first place.
And though I charge for my ebooks - which I have every right to do - I always make room for you to get them at a bargain, even giving you the opportunity to pay whatever you wanted for those ebooks. Remember all those 'pay what you want' specials?
Now it's my hour of need: and you've gone silent on me! Whether you feel justified in doing so when I've ministered to your needs so freely over the months and years - I'll leave that between you and God to figure out. But the need is still there even after all of my asking and pleading.
They say you can always know where you really stand with people when you ask them for money. Money has a way of revealing hearts and motives: which is why Jesus equated love for it with love for God. Money is the only thing that challenges our hearts for God's affection.
I fear that too many of you love money too much: if that were not the case you would've given by now! There's no way I could've seen any of you asking for help as much as you've seen me asking these past few months, and ignored those pleas for this long without giving something.
Only a stony heart devoid of godly affection and filled with the cares of this life could do that.
Maybe more of you will give after reading this, and maybe not. Most of you will go on just being offended like you already are, until my next viral article comes out. Then you'll be right there gobbling that up to. Give or don't give: doesn't matter to me either way at this point. My fantasy is over as I see exactly how I need to proceed moving forward with this work God has entrusted to me. I feel like Paul:
"Then Paul and Barnabas spoke out boldly and declared, "It was necessary that we first preach the word of God to you Jews. But since you have rejected it and judged yourselves unworthy of eternal life, we will offer it to the Gentiles." Acts 13:46
And in another place he had a similar remark:
"But when they opposed and insulted him, Paul shook the dust from his clothes and said, "Your blood is upon your own heads--I am innocent. From now on I will go preach to the Gentiles." Acts 18:6
Just needed to get that off my chest. For those who still want to give something, see the comments below where I've given the instructions for how to do so. For the rest: God bless you anyway and I bid you well on your personal journey.