I've always had obsessive tendencies as a child. In kindergarten through 4th grade for example, I liked this one girl and I remember following her everywhere. I was never creepy towards her, we were actually friends for years and either she never knew about the things I did or she was too young to comprehend them. Anyway I've never experienced anything like that until now. I am currently a sophomore in high school and I basically live a second life.
It started the first day of freshman year when I first saw her walk into my first period class. my feelings have progressively gotten more extreme over the year and a half of me knowing her. It started simple, I'd maybe glance at her during class but eventually just glancing wasn't good enough. I just wanted to stare at her, of course I never did to avoid seeming creepy but I would have paid 100 dollars just to stare for a few hours. I mustered up the courage to talk to her one day (this was around halfway through the school year). She was really sweet but she was too timid and shy to keep a conversation with. After a while she started letting me walk her to her class and that was when I really started to care about her. After the school year ended the summer was torture for me and during the summer I spend days thinking of reasons for why I feel the way I do. eventually I considered I may be a yandere but of course I laughed at this because I assumed that yanderes were a completely fictional thing. I kept that thought in the back of my mind as I prepared myself for the next school year. I changed everything about my appearance including buying all new clothes that I thought she would like more.
When the school year started, in an attempt to seem more relatable to her I stopped talking to all my friends did everything by myself just like she does. However After a few weeks my friends found me and convinced me to stop ignoring them so I did. After that I changed a few things things. Once I got my schedule memorized I monitored her until I memorized her schedule as well. After this I constructed my own schedule based around finding as much time as I can to observe her while still seeming normal around my friends and peers. It's currently the end of the school year and I recently bought a notebook in March that's dedicated to writing down everything she does for every day (kind of like a journal but more organized) I even numbered the pages myself.
I write other things as well like if I'm thinking about her or not. I've never been voilent toward any people who get in my way of being with her. this one guy who I observed to be talking to her really ticked me off so I befriended him to ask if he liked her or not and fortunately he said he used to but doesn't anymore and he agreed to help me with her if I need it. He's an overall good person and a good friend but the sooner he either moves away or dies the sooner I don't have to worry about him liking her again This is basically a summary of my life and how I live on a daily basis thank you for reading
this is extremely creepy. i am a woman, and if someone had done this to me, especially at such a young age, i would’ve freaked out and called for help.
i don’t know why this is being encouraged. this is sick.
I understand your concern but although it may come off as creepy i that isn't my intention.
I live a normal life. I have a job, my parents and I have a good relationship, I have many good friends, and I do things that I enjoy I honestly don't see the need to call it "sick" but I respect your opinion
GoreKinky: “I’m also a sophomore in high school and I feel I share a lot of obsessively homicidal tendencies with you. Good luck my d00d
Respect. She’s so lucky to be the subject of such infatuation. Good luck getting her. :)”