What happens to blackpilled straight women who also don't like their gender role, femininity etc? How to deal with life when most women are dick sucking and taking dick in their asses pickmes? I've been blackpilled since i was like 15 and i feel so isolated

I look at other women and i'm like? Tf are you

why are u this way? Why? Just why? I not only hate men but i also start to hate women and have those horrible thoughs about them, i can't look at the anymore cause i realize how much of a dumb pickmes they are. Everytime any of the girls i know starts dating a man i feel disgusted and imagine all the pickmes shit she does with him and that she suck his dick(i think i have a trauma from hearing those stories girls i know tell me about how they give oral to some random men at parties and shit like that and im like Are you retarded? Why would you do that) and honestly making a man feel good just doesn't feel like a smart thing to do and i know and i'm aware of who men really are and what they really think and that they don't deserve anything. Idk maybe pickmes just are not aware of the things that I'm aware of? Or their brains ignore it like, it's biological but for some reason my brain works differently lol

The fact that most straigh/bi women serve men and get thier mouth close to their opression tool (dick lol most men are rapist and pickmes be putting it in their mouths anyway wtf) is really repulsing i'm repulsed by both men and women tbh

And also pickmes are dating men 20+ older than them LOL why would you do that? how do they even sleep with those men without being left traumatized