On the long and winding road to CI, I came across a "kinist" website that had some racially-aware material that I agreed with. I didn't like white nationalist websites because most of them very anti-Christian, and although I didn't consider myself a practicing Christian at that time, I did not tolerate Christ bashing, and the kinists certainly didn't do that--at least overtly.
However, I quickly ran into a wall with the kinists. I found it impossible to believe that God created the White race and the mud races. If he could create a race of people who literally could get in rockets and search the heavens, why would He, at the same time, create the negro, who could barely clothe and feed himself? To believe such a thing would be to believe that God was capable of failure--or that He created the other races as a cruel joke to be played on Whites, neither of which could I accept.
And the kinists had no rational explanation for this dilemma--except perhaps that the other races were created so that Whites would realize their superiority, some watered-down form of dominion theology. So ultimately I rejected kinist theology--and became more and more convinced that God could not have created both the White race and the non-Whites. My suspicions were eventually confirmed when later on I discovered Bill's podcasts on Pragmatic Genesis, along with Clifton Emahiser's many excellent essays on the subject.
Yahweh wrote a racial consciousness in the hearts of His children--without it, they would have no instinct for remaining a separate people. Most parents shame their White children whenever those children voice any racial awareness, and thus stifle that God-given, healthy instinct--thus instilling shame about those feelings. I have never shamed my young sons no matter how racially-charged their observations are. When my 7 year old says that blacks aren't people, I just smile and say, "You could be right. If we are people, how can they be people, too?"