It's with a heavy heart that I write this article about a vision I saw in a dream, and I hope this article can encourage fellow practitioners not to slack off in cultivation. Fa-rectification has almost reached its end, so let's be diligent and seize the last chance Master has given us to save more people.
In my dream, I saw a dimension similar to ours. The only difference is that it's a bit darker and more desolate. Apart from me, no one else was there.
Suddenly, everything in front of me — the land, the trees, the buildings — started rising up in the air, like a huge spaceship. I saw it very clearly in my dream. As it was rising, its underside was crumbling away, dropping soil as it went.
My gut told me that I did not deserve to board this spaceship, because I hadn't cultivated well. I hadn't fulfilled my vows. Those who deserved to be on this spaceship are genuine cultivators who have met the standards, fulfilled their vows, and gotten rid of all their attachments.
My mind was empty as I stood there, unable to move. I had huge regrets in my heart.
This spaceship was slowly rising. When it was about 10 meters in the air, I saw a row of small, transparent boxes placed on one side of the spaceship, about 20 to 30 in total. The boxes, I felt, should be filled with our mighty virtue. However, my boxes were empty.
There were numbers above each box, which corresponded with the number of sentient beings we saved. If we reached that number, we've met the standard. Only then can we get on this spaceship and follow Master to go to the new universe. However, none of my boxes and numbers matched; I didn't save enough.
I have been involved with some Dafa work in recent years, but my reasons for doing it weren't pure. I belong to the group of practitioners who are not serious about cultivation. I didn't study the Fa regularly, didn't do the exercises, and didn't send righteous thoughts. I also didn't cultivate my xinxing well and haven't saved enough people.
In general, I haven't done well on anything in cultivation.
While writing this, I broke into a cold sweat out of fear. I haven't cultivated well, but the most important thing is that I haven't fulfilled my vows. The consequences for breaching my vows are unimaginable.
In the dream, I thought that everything was done for and that I did not deserve to live anymore. Master has shouldered so much for me over the past years, but I still didn't fulfill my vows. The countless sentient beings in my world would be destroyed and disintegrated.
It is as Master said, “An unparalleled crime!” (Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference)
Master also said,
“...when you realize what you've missed out on you won't even want to live even if you are allowed to!” (Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference)
Master's words described my feelings at that moment exactly.
The huge spaceship suddenly stopped rising. Master appeared on the right side of it and had been watching me. That kind of sadness and hopelessness I felt was really painful—it felt like someone was cutting my heart open with a knife.
I felt so sorry. My mind was empty at that moment, as any type of thought would be shameful at that time.
Suddenly, the huge spaceship started calling me and came back down, landing slowly. I knew Master didn't want to give up on me, didn't want me to face this kind of extremely horrible consequence. Master showed me his boundless and infinite mercy yet again.
A female practitioner came from behind me and walked onto the layer of earth. She took half of the boxes away. I realized that Master asked this practitioner to shoulder half of my responsibilities, but I must fill up the rest of the boxes by myself, to make it correspond to the numbers above, to compensate for what I had lost. As I had lost countless sentient beings forever due to my lack of diligence, I also won't be able to go back to my original world.
When the female practitioner finished picking up the boxes, Master said, “It will continue to rise in three minutes.” I then woke up from the dream.
Master gave me three more minutes to do well, but I don't know how long that period of time is in the human world. I only know that the time is very short.
The reason I share this dream is that I hope it encourages the practitioners who haven't been diligent to seize the final opportunity and limited time to step out and save people, and let go of their human attachments. Use this final opportunity to compensate for what one has lost; otherwise, the end result would be horrifying. Every minute and every second is a decisive, sink-or-swim moment.
I thank Master for his infinite compassion. I will try my best to do the three things well from now on and assimilate to the Fa as much as possible. The dream awakened me and will become my momentum for doing the three things better and to live up to Master's expectations and compassionate salvation.