Yeah, no, sorry. There is no person out there who is disgusted with all men but you who will give you unconditional motherly love and support and also suck your dick. And there shouldn't be. Part of love is seeing the best and the worst in a person, and loving them anyway. Part of love is being able to show a person the best and the worst of you, and trust that they will accept you for all that you are. Expecting the universe to just spawn a perfect girlfriend will leave you disappointed and bitter, no surprise there.